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All I Wanna Say Is It’ll Be Alright

One Revolution Around The Sun from MTV c/o Richard Turley on Vimeo.

I started wearing my wedding band again. To remind myself that I’m stronger than I feel. I recently interviewed Amy Jo Martin, who wore red nail polish every day for 5 years as a confidence trigger whenever she felt unworthy.

This is my wedding band. It’s an ouroboros. Eternal chaos and renewal. My physician told me that my life has been series of crises, one after the other. He referred me to a crisis therapist, but I never called. Because I never feel stressed or sad unless it involves a broken heart.

Otherwise, I’m stronger than I feel.

In our time of shiny happy social media feeds, I figured I’d try to review my year in earnest and show you all of the darker periods and how it’s ok. How I’m doing ok and whatever shit you’re going through – that too shall pass.

Joey Ng Lower East Side New York 2015



This was the year that my divorce was final. And although I haven’t spoken to Chris since I filed a restraining order against him, it marked a real sense of closure. I don’t talk about this often, as it is a particularly painful story – but it is over. The important lessons are to always put your personal safety first and never let a broken person, break you.

This was the hardest thing I’ve ever had to overcome, which is why I’ve chosen the ring as my talisman for courage.

My boss, the CEO of American Apparel, Dov Charney gets booted from the company he founded

This has been covered extensively in the news. And while it may be fun schadenfreude fodder for those who have participated in the culture of American Apparel in some way for the past decade, this had very real and difficult ramifications in my life.

While I had been living out of a suitcase since 2009, I was accustomed to the organised chaos and rhythm in which we ran the company. I’d written about my thoughts on this here. There was an extremely high level of uncertainty and instability.

When you’ve dedicated most of the waking hours of your adult life to working there as I had, it often feels like your career is all you have. Some malevolent force was fucking with the one constant, my every day, my foundation, my family.

Joey Ng Brooklyn Bridge New York April 2015

I was fired

After 7 years of tenure, I was fired from both of my positions at American Apparel as Marketing Director and Retail Director of our Australian subsidiary. Under new management and within 2 weeks of a new supervisor – I encountered hostile bullying and discrimination, filed an HR complaint, 48 hours later I was out of a job, my US work visa, and $40,000 worth of unpaid bonuses.

This didn’t stop them from taking credit for positive work that myself and my colleagues were responsible for, after throwing us out the door.

American Apparel has filed for bankruptcy which make my shares worthless and legal claims effectively frozen. But bad situations give us the best ideas, my views changed in ways I never thought they would.

When cash is scarce, you figure out what your life essentials are. In things, in people, in beliefs. This means that I no longer put up with a lot of bullshit out of loyalty, obligation, or mercenary reasons.


My dog died

Miss you, Albert Einstein. You were a great physicist.


Now, remember how I said it’ll be alright? I had a destabilising year, but the pros always outweighed the cons and I thank Based God for the generosity of all the people in my life. Here’s what kept me afloat.

Great Sex

Incredible sex will change your life. Let’s not discredit how something so basic can alter your entire mood. I thought I was doing alright in this arena until I was dumbfounded by a specific experience. I asked my partner at the time how he became the best I’d ever had. For someone who never says much, his response was sweet and profound.

“It’s not me, it’s us. It’s about two people connecting, and we’re just very connected.”

Imagine going your entire life having never been vulnerable enough to share that kind of connection with someone.

Sometimes you have to love like you have nothing to lose.
And who knows? Your entire universe might expand in a moment of surrender.


Female Friends

No relationship is stronger than that of a female bond. I wholeheartedly believe this. I just broke up with someone I really, really, really liked. For every time I’ve been in a tailspin, the unconditional support and humour from my friends and sisters have always brought me back to some semblance of sanity.

Women confide in each other and listen, really listen and care. It’s a type of intimacy that may never be achieved through romantic relationships. For romance to work, there has to be some suspension of belief and female friendships are as real as they get. Ugly cries, guilty admissions, secret slobby behaviours, and mental hospitalization levels of cray are all safe territory in the context of BFFs.

Love you, bitches.

DJ Slow Joey Ng Paris October 2015


I’d never been to Europe before, and this year I made it a priority to get to Paris. It wasn’t all that.

My favourite moments were centered on one-on-one time spent in my air bnb with some very special dear-to-my-heart dudes.

Hot showers shared, home made breakfasts, listening to lesser-known Bieber tracks. It made me miss home.
Home being a person, and not a place.

Here’s to you, my people.

Happy New Year.
With love,

your girl.

This entry was written by Joey, posted on December 31, 2015 at 5:09 pm, filed under Friends, Joey Ng, Los Angeles, Love, New York, Sex, Writing and tagged , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , . Leave a comment or view the discussion at the permalink.

US, Eh?

Leave it up to America to play a big ol’ game of SPORTS SPORTS SPORTS in the World Cup on Canada’s day.

But all’s fair in love and war

so come one, neck braces, wheelchairs, non-US citizens even, come all. All America asks is that you

and I mean

and even then, like many short-lived romances,

drunken, hungry, and wanting


yet anxious


until defeated and disposed. Just remember when you’ve lost. When your sunny day heart breaks, there’s always



Featured in this post:
World Cup viewing hosted by Nike LA at Sixth and Mill
Jasmine Safaeian
Ilirjana Aлусхај
Lobster Roll & Short Rib Poutine from Littlefork

My outfit:
Geo Lace Bodysuit: American Apparel
Acid Wash High-Waist Jean Cuff Short: American Apparel
Flat Lattice Jelly Sandal: American Apparel
Charlotte Bag: (Gifted by) Katherine Kwei

This entry was written by Joey, posted on July 2, 2014 at 9:37 am, filed under Events, Friends, Joey Ng, Los Angeles and tagged , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , . Leave a comment or view the discussion at the permalink.

Ain’t no sunshine when

This is precisely how I feel about being in Los Angeles right now.

I’ve always felt like home was a person and not a place.
I feel so homesick. Homeless, rather, more than ever.

I want to say that I’m trapped, here, in my transience.
I want to say many more things, to explain. I don’t have the wherewithal.

Bianca wrote me this morning. The subject was simply “<3". Another reminder that everyone who cares for me lives in New York, or Berlin, or Toronto. A few days ago, her company, Small Girls PR, had sent me a pair of Tortoise & Blonde sunglasses.

They arrived precisely on a day when I had been crying steadily. I needed these glasses. Thank you.

She suggested that I elaborate on the motto inscribed in the case “ONE Today. ANOTHER Tomorrow.” I think I’m supposed to write about babes and adventures and how life goes on. How I could have one of each of the aforementioned today, and another tomorrow.

But I can’t. I haven’t decided what it is I could say that would make things better or whether they’d be worse.
I’m afraid that I may have already said enough of the wrong things, rendering irreparable.
I’ll let my new Sunset shades tell you how I feel –

black and blue.

For now, I just want to take each day as it comes. One today, another tomorrow.

This entry was written by Joey, posted on May 25, 2012 at 1:19 pm, filed under Fashion, Friends, Joey Ng, Los Angeles, Love, Photos, Writing and tagged , , , , , , , . Leave a comment or view the discussion at the permalink.

One month, six cities

From left to right, top to bottom:

Los Angeles > New York > Los Angeles > Melbourne > Sydney > Adelaide > Sydney > Hong Kong > Los Angeles > Home.

All photos from my instagram: joeynogood

This entry was written by Joey, posted on April 21, 2012 at 5:49 am, filed under Joey Ng, Los Angeles, New York, Photos and tagged , , , , , , , , , , , , . Leave a comment or view the discussion at the permalink.

Mindshare LA:
The Vast Blue

Went with Destinee to Mindshare LA’s The Vast Blue event at The Alexandria.

Really great speakers centered around under the sea topics: James Cameron’s Titanic filming expeditions, sustainable sushi, and sea cucumber sex habits!

Destinee was there putting in hours practising nail art.

Little Octopus!! Too cute.

Found Nemo.

Pattern inspiration

Finally my turn to get my nails did!

Fat Joe once said “tattoo in your chest with his name in the middle”… what about his name on my middle finger? Does that still count?

What’s Luv? Got to do, got to do widdit, babe?

Dee, Kirsten, and Daniel Bedingfield. Remember that guy? Remember when Natasha Bedingfield was Daniel Bedingfield’s sister and now it’s totally the other way around? Whappened?

Super Tall Paul is supes amaze. He plays and you listen via headphones only.

Curious Josh, the event photographer, trying hard to get a serious phote of Destinee. Not gonna happen.

We had too much fun trying to make balloon animals and hats. Took a million self-timer shots of us wearing balloon everythings in front of the Range Rover but they all turned out too blurry. Wamp wamp.

So I’ll leave you with this. Huzzah.

This entry was written by Joey, posted on April 6, 2012 at 1:20 am, filed under Events, Friends, Joey Ng, Los Angeles, Photos and tagged , , , , , , , , , , , . Leave a comment or view the discussion at the permalink.

Be Beautiful Project

Avoided Green Day: American Idiots (St. Patrick’s Day) by going to The Be Beautiful Project at Papillion Institute of Art

A group exhibit by contemporary women artists in LA sponsored by Social Butterfly consulting care of birthday girl, Shawanna Davis.

Photos, paintings, video, and a live performance right in DTLA.

Destinee participated as the event’s nail artist.

So amazing to see her doing her thing.

Interested in booking an appointment? E-mail me and I’ll send you her way.

Bumped into my colleague Kris Simms rocking bright yellow with Taye Hansberry from

Taye’s Marni x H&M score.

Destinee even got Taye’s url on her nails!

I got an iPhone recently, while I’m waiting for my custom gelaskin to arrive, I’m eyeing everyone else’s cases. Aja’s leopard print purse case = bling bling money ain’t a thang. LOVE.

Gift bags from Milani cosmetics.

Purple lipgloss. It’s happening.


This entry was written by Joey, posted on March 19, 2012 at 2:17 pm, filed under Beauty, Events, Friends, Joey Ng, Los Angeles, Photos and tagged , , , , , , , , , , , . Leave a comment or view the discussion at the permalink.

Things I’ve learned from the death of a loved one

I’ve had this post in my drafts folder for about a month. I guess it’s never going to feel right, so I’ll post it now.

Let’s be honest here. And by ‘let’s’, I can only mean me. I am sad. It comes and goes, and it comes less often than it did but when it does, it’s no less heartbreaking.

I want to talk about our last conversation.
I want to talk about every single memory.
But not quite, in its entirety. At least not yet.

I took a shower this morning, I cried in the shower. I started making a list of things I felt I had learned from feeling pretty fucked up in the past few weeks.

P.S. It’s for me, mostly.

1. Fall in love. A lot.

I don’t have a lot of time. With people. In one place.
It comes with the territory of not having had a home address in years. So people often wonder how much you can possibly love a person in mere months or weeks or days.

Have you ever had a moment?
When your world started to shift
revolve around a person.

I probably fell in love with Richard by the third night I had spent any time with him. We were on his red velvet couch. He lay a mass of ginger curls on my chest. Just for a second, maybe seventeen of them. And I knew I’d always have an immensely, intensely, emotional reaction to whatever it was that he would ever do did. We didn’t have a lot of time. I couldn’t have loved him any later or less. I would not have forsaken it for anything.

So fall in love. Whole-heartedly and as often as you’d like. Even just for the 20 minutes it takes to lie on the driveway in front of a McDonald’s to make out with someone you’ve just met. I have. And it was great.

2. Write it down. Especially if it’s important, even when it’s difficult.

A few weeks before Richard died, I found out he had written me a letter. He said it was probably best that it was at the bottom of his car getting wetter by the day. I don’t have that letter. I wish I did, and if there is any way I could read what he had wanted to say to me regardless of its contents and sentiments, I would.

I read his journals when we last played house. I tell people this was an asshole thing I did but really it’s the kind of thing I would do unapologetically. If I can learn something –anything– more about a person I care about, I will.

Some of it was unsettling, but mostly amusing. It was all important. It was important for me to know his thoughts – whether mundane, dark, or genius alike. It’s important to me that I knew him.

I also wrote a lot about him. I adored him at times and hated him at others. The way we related, he called it ‘tumultuous’. And in these whiskey encouraged extremes, I wrote. I’ve read them over and over. To remember.

Write it all down – one day you may want to remember it, too.

3. Know what you want. Deliver others what they want.

In my last hour with Richard, I had ordered a cup of tomato soup, a side of potato salad, and a side of arugula salad with shaved parmesan. Then the server asked if I wanted to get a combo of 3 sides. The list of permitted options in his proposed combo contained none of the things I had originally ordered so I said “No, thank you” with a look. A look that said “No, thank you. You idiot.”

Dick laughed. “This guy obviously doesn’t know you. You of all people know exactly what you want.”

He was right. I’m not very compromising. I know what I want, and I fight to get it. Sometimes that didn’t help our cause, but it was what I wanted. Y’see Richard dumped me years ago because I had to travel with my job and he wanted a stable, local girlfriend. I’m very grateful and happy with where I am even if it meant letting go of potentially wonderful relationships because that’s what felt right at the time.

I love my job, the city, and the people I surround myself with. He fell in love the most beautiful girl he’d ever seen and they made art and love and a home while it lasted.

I think we both found what we needed, afterall.

4. Keep the ones you love in your life.

It was months before we spoke again. Richard had ended things with me over BBM and I had the drunkest night of my life. I deleted him out of my phone, and blocked him on facebook. Four months had passed. He called. Ever the sweetheart, of course he’d be the first to reach out.

We became friends again and infrequently lovers. We kept each other updated, but mostly each other in check. I was dismissive a lot of the time. I’m sorry, Richard. I hope you know I care.

I found out that he had died through a friend of a friend’s facebook status.

It sounds so fucking stupid but I hated myself for blocking him on facebook. Over the years, he thought it was funny and we made a pact not to pry in each other’s social media profiles. But it seemed so overwhelmingly important to be able to see photos of him. All the hilariously ridiculous updates that I had missed. Every heartfelt message left from our grieving friends.

But then I remembered that’s what he had wanted. For us to share what we had to share between us when we could – in person, by phone, or text. A personal connection. At least I had that. All of our memories. And I can’t imagine how much worse I would feel if he’d never been a part of my life again.

It may be hard at times, nor the best idea at others but eventually, reach out and keep the ones you love in your life. Don’t be cruel. You don’t want to regret losing someone for good.

Richard, you said you had a dream that I’d told you I wished I’d never have met you. That couldn’t be further from the truth. Every day I wish you were still here. At bus stops, in elevators, every street corner of downtown LA, I think of you. I miss you. You are loved so dearly.

Later, Ginger.

This entry was written by Joey, posted on March 4, 2012 at 9:26 pm, filed under Friends, Los Angeles, Love, Writing and tagged , , , , , , , , . Leave a comment or view the discussion at the permalink.

Fat pigs at Fat Spoon

If you thought I did much else other than work and eat, you’d be wrong.

Three little piggies went to Little Tokyo after reading The Minty’s post on Fat Spoon during it’s opening week.

Specialising in Japanese style curry, pasta, and salad.

Grilled Vegetable Salad

Chilli oil, pickled onions, pickled daikon

Spaghetti Carbonara. I love Japanese style pastas because they pack a ton of flavour in a much lighter form in comparison to regular Italian fare. I don’t know what the change in recipe is, but it feels less heavy, hearty, and carbicide-y. Just the right amount of creamy cheesiness.

I ordered a side of the sauteed mushrooms. They were pretty bland and dry so I dumped them into my pasta dish. Only disappointing item, though. Rest of the food was fab.

Seafood curry. Love the roasty sweetness to the sauce.
Now for the REAL reason why we came…

Ice cream sundae with LOTTE KOALA COOKIES!!! How cute is this? AND they put strawberry pocky in it, too.
Too cute. To. Die.

Fat Spoon
329 East First Street
Los Angeles, CA 90012

P.S. I’m going to start sending little love letters to y’all. Who knows what e-surprises I have in store for ya. Maybe some secrets. Mostly the things I’m secretly eating. Maybe something even better. If you want to hear from me,
click here to subscribe to my love letters!

This entry was written by Joey, posted on October 25, 2011 at 4:08 am, filed under Food, Los Angeles, Photos and tagged , , , , , , , , , . Leave a comment or view the discussion at the permalink.

Macaroon swoon

Tony and Etienne already had brunch so while I had eggs, they had tiramisu.

I just love looking at these baked good beauties.

Eclairs. Don’t those Raspberry cake domes look perfect for Chrimbo?

Oh man, marshmallows and fruit tarts. Kryptonite.

Multi-coloured macaroons!

Loveliest little box. I’d rather get one of these than a Tiffany blue one, honest.

I chose the Salted Caramel, Raspberry, Earl Grey, and Grand Cru macaroons. I recommend the salted caramel and earl grey ones. They’ve got nice counter flavours to balance out the sweetness.

My little box of joy. More orange in the outfit. NDP brup brup!
Chiffon Pleated Skirt and Basic Bodysuit from American Apparel.
PS1 Wallet from Proenza Schouler.

P.S. I STARTED A TUMBLR!! My blog will feature posts by me and the tumblr will be a collection of things I love by other people. FOLLOW PLEASE.

This entry was written by Joey, posted on September 3, 2011 at 6:34 am, filed under Food, Joey Ng, Los Angeles, Photos and tagged , , , , , . Leave a comment or view the discussion at the permalink.

Bottega Louie Booster

Do you have a happy place? Y’know like whenever you feel sad, and you enter your favourite space and instantly you feel a little better? Well, it was the afternoon after Jack Layton’s state funeral. Puffy eyed and and in need of a pick-me-up, I headed for brunch at my happy place in LA, Bottega Louie.

Even though it’s in downtown Los Angeles and not Manhattan, it’s exactly the kind of place I had imagined Carrie Bradshaw and the girls would brunch at when I was an early teen.

Everything is so whimsically beautiful! Le sigh*

Ms. Etienne made it to America!

Orange eyeliner, as much orange in my outfit as possible in memory of JACK!!

Pineapple mimosa.

Pink salt! How darling.

Smoked salmon eggs benedict, of course.

Tony is smiling even bigger than when we had brunch at Home. See what I mean about my happy place?

Will post our desserts tomorrow. Come back, or subscribe to my feed!


This entry was written by Joey, posted on September 2, 2011 at 9:00 am, filed under Food, Friends, Joey Ng, Los Angeles, Photos and tagged , , , , , . Leave a comment or view the discussion at the permalink.

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