One Revolution Around The Sun from MTV c/o Richard Turley on Vimeo.
I started wearing my wedding band again. To remind myself that I’m stronger than I feel. I recently interviewed Amy Jo Martin, who wore red nail polish every day for 5 years as a confidence trigger whenever she felt unworthy.
This is my wedding band. It’s an ouroboros. Eternal chaos and renewal. My physician told me that my life has been series of crises, one after the other. He referred me to a crisis therapist, but I never called. Because I never feel stressed or sad unless it involves a broken heart.
Otherwise, I’m stronger than I feel.
In our time of shiny happy social media feeds, I figured I’d try to review my year in earnest and show you all of the darker periods and how it’s ok. How I’m doing ok and whatever shit you’re going through – that too shall pass.
THE CRISES
Divorce
This was the year that my divorce was final. And although I haven’t spoken to Chris since I filed a restraining order against him, it marked a real sense of closure. I don’t talk about this often, as it is a particularly painful story – but it is over. The important lessons are to always put your personal safety first and never let a broken person, break you.
This was the hardest thing I’ve ever had to overcome, which is why I’ve chosen the ring as my talisman for courage.
My boss, the CEO of American Apparel, Dov Charney gets booted from the company he founded
This has been covered extensively in the news. And while it may be fun schadenfreude fodder for those who have participated in the culture of American Apparel in some way for the past decade, this had very real and difficult ramifications in my life.
While I had been living out of a suitcase since 2009, I was accustomed to the organised chaos and rhythm in which we ran the company. I’d written about my thoughts on this here. There was an extremely high level of uncertainty and instability.
When you’ve dedicated most of the waking hours of your adult life to working there as I had, it often feels like your career is all you have. Some malevolent force was fucking with the one constant, my every day, my foundation, my family.
I was fired
After 7 years of tenure, I was fired from both of my positions at American Apparel as Marketing Director and Retail Director of our Australian subsidiary. Under new management and within 2 weeks of a new supervisor – I encountered hostile bullying and discrimination, filed an HR complaint, 48 hours later I was out of a job, my US work visa, and $40,000 worth of unpaid bonuses.
This didn’t stop them from taking credit for positive work that myself and my colleagues were responsible for, after throwing us out the door.
American Apparel has filed for bankruptcy which make my shares worthless and legal claims effectively frozen. But bad situations give us the best ideas, my views changed in ways I never thought they would.
When cash is scarce, you figure out what your life essentials are. In things, in people, in beliefs. This means that I no longer put up with a lot of bullshit out of loyalty, obligation, or mercenary reasons.
My dog died
Miss you, Albert Einstein. You were a great physicist.
THE CURES
Now, remember how I said it’ll be alright? I had a destabilising year, but the pros always outweighed the cons and I thank Based God for the generosity of all the people in my life. Here’s what kept me afloat.
Great Sex
Incredible sex will change your life. Let’s not discredit how something so basic can alter your entire mood. I thought I was doing alright in this arena until I was dumbfounded by a specific experience. I asked my partner at the time how he became the best I’d ever had. For someone who never says much, his response was sweet and profound.
“It’s not me, it’s us. It’s about two people connecting, and we’re just very connected.”
Imagine going your entire life having never been vulnerable enough to share that kind of connection with someone.
Sometimes you have to love like you have nothing to lose.
And who knows? Your entire universe might expand in a moment of surrender.
Female Friends
No relationship is stronger than that of a female bond. I wholeheartedly believe this. I just broke up with someone I really, really, really liked. For every time I’ve been in a tailspin, the unconditional support and humour from my friends and sisters have always brought me back to some semblance of sanity.
Women confide in each other and listen, really listen and care. It’s a type of intimacy that may never be achieved through romantic relationships. For romance to work, there has to be some suspension of belief and female friendships are as real as they get. Ugly cries, guilty admissions, secret slobby behaviours, and mental hospitalization levels of cray are all safe territory in the context of BFFs.
Love you, bitches.
Home
I’d never been to Europe before, and this year I made it a priority to get to Paris. It wasn’t all that.
My favourite moments were centered on one-on-one time spent in my air bnb with some very special dear-to-my-heart dudes.
Hot showers shared, home made breakfasts, listening to lesser-known Bieber tracks. It made me miss home.
Home being a person, and not a place.
Here’s to you, my people.
Happy New Year.
With love,
your girl.
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, posted on December 31, 2015 at 5:09 pm, filed underIn new friends?
In no new friends?
In famous?
In family?
In separables?
In selfies?
In Drake?
In 808s and heartbreak?
Or where the path may take?
Happy New Year.
With love,
your girl.
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, posted on December 31, 2014 at 5:05 pm, filed underSnapped while walking past the Sydney Opera house wearing my Layla earphones by Frends.
Life has taken me to some pretty strange places and I’ve got to say, I wouldn’t be here without a little help from my friends. Both IRL and otherwise.
A few weeks ago, Keir sent me a DM through twitter asking if I’d like to try a pair from him and his buddy’s new jewelry-inspired headphone line, Frends. I was actually always losing my own iPhone earphones so much that I’d steal Chris’ then I’d lose those and then I’d find myself some terrible cheap plastic ones around Chinatown and misplace them, too. So, I totally said yes, I’d love a pair. I’d already heard about them via friends at Milk and their Frends with Benefits shoot.
It got cold in New York. I started wearing them every day as earmuffs. I wore them every single hour out of the 35 that it took for me to get from New York to Sydney. I’m not just saying this because I got them as a gift, but because I genuinely use them. They’re also beautiful enough that I keep the headphones hanging around my neck most of the time. Pretty much every dude babe I know asks about them – shiny! new! technology! on a girl!
I’ve never even met Keir, in fact, I’ve been internet acquaintances with him for years probably without even really knowing how it came to be. Yet here he is, responsible for an item that I include in my every day armour. Never underestimate the value of social media and the relationships you can develop through taking things offline.
So thanks, Keir, FRENDS, and the world wide webternet. They’ve been a great help.
Layla headphones can be purchased at Apple stores and online.
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, posted on December 11, 2012 at 9:39 am, filed underIf you’re unhappy with the way things are going (which I was), don’t look at your available options and settle for the least of all evils. Go ahead and do your favourite fucking thing. Figure out what that is because until you do, it doesn’t matter what you’re doing. It will eat at you, dull you, little by little.
I? Moved in with this guy, Chris Reed.
In New York, New York. Whoop!
For the first time in 3 years, I have my name on a lease. Keys I won’t have to return in a matter of weeks, a mailing address that doesn’t belong to a factory, and a bed. My bed.
I have all my things.
I get to wake up and come home to my very own little version of family.
We had a housewarming party on Canada day.
You can tell this is a social media required household.
We had the pleasure of hosting many a special Canadian guest. Meredith drove across the border for the first time!
Lacee made us couscous salad and Destinee did my nails. No one taught me how to use an old point and shoot camera properly.
Handsome boy, Rocky Li of Internet Fame. Never not hard.
Goth gurlz.
Post-teen heartthrobs. I found Austin in a Five Guys burger joint holding an American Apparel shopping bag last year.
And because this city is the greatest, I’ve found many more friends and they all dranks beers on our roof.
Come over sometime.
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, posted on July 30, 2012 at 9:07 am, filed under